Set Free Indeed: By God Through Your Story

I am so grateful and thankful that you looked past your hurt and pain to heal someone else through your story. God used you to speak to me at the women conference on this day (Saturday) July 23, 2011. I was delivered and set free from my past. And I thank you for speaking to me in my time of need. I pray that everything is fantastic with you and that you are healed. I pray it was just the enemy trying to keep you from speaking to me. All I can say is that, it was for me. I don't know what the other ladies was going through or if they to was delivered. The only thing I know is that God loved me enough to let me look in the mirror at myself. As I was looking at you and listening to you I saw Meshendia in the mirror. I know we don't look alike but your past was like an mirror image to me. It was so deep that I wanted to run out and run away from everything. But not anymore, it has been uprooted (pulled up from the root) and will no longer be a stump in the grown that keeps my grass from growing out to be green and beautiful. That stump can no longer allow my grass not to grow. That stump will no longer be a circle in my beautiful green yard, because my green grass has been made whole. It is now free to grow without patches in the midst. So, thank you God. Thank you for choosing me, allowing me to be free of my past, and using Mishunda to help set me free.

Starting All Over

There has been a lot of things going on in my life. On May 16, 2011 I was in another car accident. I was sitting at a stoplight when I was hit from behind and causing to be have another impact in the front. This is when I really feel off the health wagon. I couldn't do anything and it was a lot of days I could not walk. I was depressed a lot, which caused me to eat and eat and eat (mainly sweets) I could not hardly hold down regular foods. But found myself pushind down a lot of cookies and ice cream. On May 10, 2011 I was down to 207 lbs. and as of June 29, 2011 9:39pm my weight is 229.4 lbs. I spent over $2,500 in trying to get to the weight within two months. Buying healthy foods and vitamins and supplements. I am so discouraged that I just new that was the end of me being over weight. Not thinking that at the blink of an eye my life could change or something could happen, that would cause me to get off track. Life never said that I would feel like I was fooled into spending that much money to lose weight, when I wasn't strong enough to not over eat when I felt stressed or alone.

Everytime I start a challenge I feel like the enemy has won. "I can do all things through christ who strengthens me" Is what I have wrote on a sheet of paper on my wall beside my bed. I have let this accident throw me off focus. I am back at the weight that I started at over one year ago, and actually almost five pounds more. I am at my heaviest weight I have ever been in my entire life.

A lot of people seems to always have the answer on what's best for you. Which though a lot of the information that is given is useful and helpful. But now is the time to listen to my inner man (whom I call the Holy Spirit) to guide me through this process. As I said before I know God didn't open up that door for me last year for me to be made to look like a fool.

And this journey begins tonight as of 9:55pm as I type this blog. I know my body isn't fully healed from the car accident, but I refuse to gain anymore weight. I am having to my health issues that are starting to surface. Everyday I will blog my foods and what I did to go from 229.4 lbs. to 150 lbs. People say it may be unrealistic, but God says I am more than a conquerer.

To be continued...